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  Among the Fallen

  Godserfs Book II

  N S Dolkart

  Contents

  Prologue

  1. Criton

  2. Phaedra

  3. Narky

  4. Bandu

  5. Salemis

  6. Narky

  7. Criton

  8. Phaedra

  9. Hunter

  10. Phaedra

  11. Delika

  12. Bandu

  13. Dessa

  14. Narky

  15. Hunter

  16. Criton

  17. General Magerion

  18. Criton

  19. Narky

  20. Phaedra

  21. Bandu

  22. Narky

  23. Hunter

  24. Phaedra

  25. Narky

  26. Bandu

  27. Criton

  28. Hunter

  29. General Magerion

  30. Vella

  31. Narky

  32. Dessa

  33. Partha

  34. Criton

  35. Phaedra

  36. Hunter

  37. Bandu

  38. Narky

  39. Phaedra

  40. Criton

  41. Phaedra

  42. Bandu

  43. Phaedra

  44. Narky

  45. Partha

  46. Phaedra

  47. Bandu

  48. Ptera

  49. Bandu

  50. Criton

  51. Narky

  52. Dessa

  53. Phaedra

  54. Vella

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  In memory of Gretchen Therrien, Tom DePeter and Bob Mitchell.

  Prologue

  “Your dress is torn.” Mother scrunched her lips together. “You’ve been climbing again.”

  “No, I–”

  “Don’t lie to me,” Mother snapped. “You know what happens to girls who lie.”

  Dessa bowed her head while Mother inspected her hands. “I’m sorry.”

  Mother sighed and took up her needle. “Just be careful, all right? And don’t ruin the wedding. We don’t want the Highservants to think they’ve made a mistake.”

  “I saw a dragon today,” Dessa said. “It was flying so high in the sky…” She lifted her arms to indicate how high.

  “Stand still,” Mother said, “and don’t tell stories.” When she was done sewing the tear in the dress, she sat back and smiled. “You’ll make a lovely bride.”

  “I’m not even a woman yet,” Dessa grumbled.

  “Nor should you be,” Mother answered. “We’ve waited too long with you as it is! Any longer and the villagers might start noticing you! What if one of them wanted you? What could we say?”

  “It’s not fair,” Dessa complained. “They get to marry whoever they want, and wait as long as they want.”

  Mother shook her head. “Life isn’t fair,” she said. “Go ask your Grandma if she wants some soup.”

  Grandma was out weeding in the garden, tugging indiscriminately at weed and herb alike and gathering them all in her left hand. Dessa ran up to her and gave her a kiss.

  “Sweet child,” Grandma said, her face wrinkling with pleasure. “Where is your husband?”

  “I don’t have one yet,” Dessa said.

  “You must tell him to be careful,” Grandma warned, dropping her pile of plants and taking Dessa by the shoulders. “I saw his doom today.”

  “I don’t have a husband, Grandma,” Dessa said soothingly.

  Grandma’s eyes flashed, and she did not let go. “They will be the end of him,” she insisted. “The black dragon and the she-wolf. I saw them, Iona! They will be the end of him!”

  “Grandma, I’m Dessa. Iona is my mother. Come inside and have some soup.”

  Dessa took her grandmother by the elbow and led her indoors. The old woman calmed down the moment she saw Mother. “Oh, Iona, there you are. We were looking everywhere for you.”

  “What were you telling Dessa?” Mother asked, guiding Grandma into a chair and bringing her a bowl of soup.

  “She was telling me not to marry,” Dessa said.

  Mother shot her a warning glance. “Nonsense, Dessa. Don’t tell lies. Mother, I think you’d better stay here indoors with me.”

  Grandma nodded. “Of course, dear, I would never leave you alone. I have to take care of you, don’t I, now that your husband is gone?”

  “Belkos isn’t gone, Mother. He’s just having the nag re-shod today, that’s all. He’ll be back by suppertime.”

  Grandma lifted the bowl of soup to her lips and slurped at it tentatively. “Enjoy him while you can, dear.”

  Mother sighed. “I think you’d better stay inside for the rest of the day. You look tired.”

  Grandma seemed surprised. “Do I?”

  Mother lowered her voice. “I’m worried something will happen.”

  “You worry too much.”

  “I have to now,” Mother said, exasperated. “You don’t anymore. And Dessa’s hopeless. You don’t know what I have to put up with, Mother. Do you know she was climbing trees?”

  Grandma’s placid demeanor vanished. “Where? Did anyone see her?”

  “No, Grandma,” Dessa insisted. “And I did it the hard way. I promise!”

  “Let’s see your hands.”

  Dessa hesitated, but Grandma snatched up one of her wrists and turned her palms up. Then she slapped her. “Your skin is torn, you little liar!”

  Mother rushed forward, crying, “Mother, stop! Torn skin is good, remember? It means she was telling the truth.”

  Grandma let go and Dessa scurried away from her, sobbing. “The truth?” Grandma asked confusedly.

  “The truth, Mother. Dessa’s a good girl. You shouldn’t hit her.”

  “I didn’t hit anyone,” Grandma said.

  “The red priest take you,” Dessa muttered.

  “What did you just say?”

  Why did Grandma’s hearing have to be so sharp?

  “Nothing.”

  Grandma’s eyes flashed again and she advanced on Dessa. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” Dessa cried, cowering against the wall.

  “Stop, stop!” Mother said, holding Grandma back. “I’ll take care of it, Mother, I promise I will.”

  At last, Grandma relented and went back to her soup. Mother was shaking.

  “Wait until your father comes home,” she warned Dessa. “Honestly, can’t either of you control yourselves? How will we survive if neither of you can keep out of trouble? I’m going to have to keep your grandmother indoors after this, Dessa, but what am I supposed to do with you? You should know better.”

  Dessa bowed her head, ashamed. She had been afraid – she hadn’t been thinking.

  “I’m sorry, Mother,” she said, and turned her claws back into hands.

  1

  Criton

  The room was already spinning when he opened his eyes. Criton groaned, trying to focus on a single spot to slow the world down. It had been like this for the last two weeks, ever since the red priest of Ardis had robbed him of flight and watched him plummet to earth. Every time he woke, it felt like a struggle to come back from the dead. His vision blurred, his head felt heavy, and the spinning – well, maybe it was slowing down a little.

  He sat up slowly, still trying to focus on that spot in the thatching. When he dared to look down, he found Bandu sitting across from him, nursing Goodweather.

  “It still hurts,” she said, concerned for him.

  “It doesn’t exactly hurt,” Criton tried to explain, “and it’s definitely better than it was, but…”

  “But still bad.”

  “Yes, it’s still bad.”

  Bandu sighed. “Rest
is good for me too. You can take her soon?”

  Criton began to nod, but stopped. Nodding brought the dizziness back. “Give me a few minutes,” he said, “but I’ll take her.”

  He sat there, getting his bearings, until Bandu rose and handed Goodweather over to him. “I sleep now,” she said.

  Goodweather had fallen asleep while nursing, thank God Most High, and she did not wake up when Bandu transferred her to Criton. Criton held her at his shoulder, rubbing her back absentmindedly with his scaly palm. He needed water, and he needed to relieve himself, but in what order? He stumbled out of the hut, carrying his daughter in his arms. He found Narky already at the well, pulling up a bucket of water.

  “How are you feeling today?” Narky asked. “Good enough to travel?”

  “What’s the hurry?” Criton said, trying not to groan. “We have what we need here, and for once nobody’s trying to kill us. Except my head.”

  Narky frowned and lifted the bucket onto the stones. “We should be moving already. I feel it here.” He tapped at his chest.

  Criton looked around, trying to open his eyes all the way. The abandoned village had suited their needs perfectly these last two weeks – did they really have to leave so soon? They had stayed here once to give Narky time to heal, back before the villagers had left for the dubious protection of a wizard’s fortress. The villagers hadn’t bothered taking the straw mattresses when they left, and some of the thatched roofs would easily last another ten years. It was a perfect place to rest – why should Narky, of all people, spoil that?

  “My head’s not all better,” Criton said obstinately. “Could you hold Goodweather a minute? I need a drink.”

  Narky looked like he might refuse, but Criton didn’t give him an opportunity. He placed his daughter in Narky’s unwilling arms and took a long gulp of water straight from the bucket. Goodweather stirred a little, and Narky’s eyes widened in panic.

  “Don’t worry,” Criton said. “I’ll be right back.” And over Narky’s whispered protests, he went to find a place to piss.

  When his head had cleared, he found that he was still rocking from side to side as if Goodweather remained in his arms. That was what it was like now – taking care of his daughter had become a reflex. A sweet, happy reflex.

  He couldn’t stop thinking about her. Goodweather was growing so beautifully, and not just in size. She had begun to smile too, the briefest of smiles that filled him with joy one moment and disappeared the next. He had no knowledge of babies besides what few stories Ma had told him about himself as an infant, and he had not known to expect these tiny fleeting expressions. He wondered which would grow faster – her little body or her little smiles.

  “Take her, take her,” Narky insisted when Criton returned. “She won’t hold her head up; I don’t want to break her neck accidentally.”

  Criton took Goodweather back, holding her head against his shoulder and bouncing gently from side to side. “I’d have thought you knew about these things better than I did,” he said. “You watched animals give birth and everything, didn’t you?”

  “And helped them, sometimes,” Narky confirmed. “Lambs aren’t so damned helpless, though. She’s more than a month old already – a sheep would be running around by now!”

  Criton shrugged, and Goodweather stirred. A little wave of heat met his shoulder and died away again, returning every few seconds in a steady rhythm. Hiccups.

  “Where would we go?” Criton asked after a while.

  Narky scratched at his chest. “Wherever your God takes us. It’s generous of Him to let us rest for a while, but do you honestly think he could be done with us already? He’s bound to show us the way soon enough.”

  “Do you count yourself among the servants of God Most High, then? I thought your theory was that Ravennis still lived.”

  “He does,” Narky said. “He must. Until that last Oracle turns up dead, I won’t believe He’s really gone. So of course I’m His servant first, but what’s that got to do with anything? People worship more than one God all the time.”

  Criton shook his head. “Not with God Most High. His worshippers follow Him alone.”

  “According to who?” Narky asked pointedly. “What’s-his-name who wrote that scroll Psander gave you? He also told you Dragon Touched were monsters who should be wiped off the face of the earth. And you almost killed me when I said he could have been right about something.”

  Goodweather stirred. “I didn’t almost kill you,” Criton muttered.

  “You’re not the one to judge that.”

  Luckily, Hunter spared Criton the need to answer by arriving just then, carrying a saddle over one forearm and a sack in his other hand. “Take this,” he said to Narky, handing over the sack. “It’s all the food I could find that’s still good.”

  “Why did you bring back a saddle?” Narky asked. “We haven’t got any horses.”

  “Phaedra asked me to bring her any leather I could find,” Hunter said. “There wasn’t much left but this.”

  Criton sighed. “She’s going to try leather now? That’ll be a good deal heavier than the tree bark.”

  “But it won’t fall apart,” Hunter pointed out.

  Phaedra had become obsessed with writing down what they had learned in their travels, but her attempts at creating makeshift books had met with abject failure.

  Narky peeked inside the sack and grimaced. “This won’t last us more than a day or two.”

  “Most of what wasn’t burned has been picked clean by now,” Hunter said. “And the battlefield is already overrun with vines. Between the scavengers and the Yarek, we’re lucky I found this much.”

  Narky looked knowingly at Criton. “We should leave tomorrow, whether we have your God’s guidance or not.”

  “Phaedra won’t be happy about it,” Hunter commented, “but I can tell her we’re leaving soon. Where are we going?”

  Goodweather began to cry.

  “That depends on Criton and his God.”

  Criton went to bed that night hoping for a vision from his God, but it was not God Most High who spoke to him as he slept. Instead, the prophet Salemis appeared to him. The great dragon was flying so high above the clouds that his shadow seemed to span half the world. The air was thin and cold, but Salemis seemed to have no trouble staying aloft. When he saw Criton, still somehow lying in bed so far below, he almost smiled.

  “Are you feeling better?” he asked.

  “I’ll be fine,” Criton said, still asleep beside Bandu. “Are you visiting the heavens?”

  “I will be returning soon,” the dragon answered. “Are you well enough to travel?”

  “I think so.”

  “Then gather your friends and go north. I will meet you in my old home, by the mountains of Ardis.”

  2

  Phaedra

  Hunter’s dagger was not the best tool for this kind of work, but Phaedra considered herself an expert in perseverance. She carefully slid the blade back and forth, back and forth, working at the space between the saddle’s seat and its frame. Slowly, painstakingly, the top layer of leather began to part from its base, and with each stroke, Phaedra moved the dagger more easily. When she finally dropped her tool and held up the single, pliable piece of leather in her hands, she found that it was still too thick to easily roll up like a proper scroll. But makeshift parchment was better than none; with a steel nail or a sharp rock, it would mark easily enough.

  They ate what Hunter had brought with him from the ruined camp. Phaedra spent the meal lost in thought, composing her first words. When she had finished eating, she took a flint shard off the ground, settled the leather in her lap, and scratched into it: I am Phaedra Merchantsdaughter, of the once-great island of Tarphae. Here is what befell my people, both those who perished and those few who remain beside me.

  I must begin my account with the circumstances under which we left Tarphae behind. In the year before the plague, I had developed a youthful obsession with Atel the Messenger God, and
I was eager to visit the Atellan abbey known as Crossroads on a pilgrimage. On the eve of Karassa’s summer festival, I booked passage for myself and my nursemaid Kelina on a fishing boat headed for Atuna. Four others joined us there: Hunter of House Tavener, Criton of the Dragon Touched, Bandu of the woods, and Narky.

  Unbeknownst to the rest of us, or indeed to the fisherman who had promised us passage, Bandu brought with her the wolf Four-foot, concealed under a blanket. Shortly after we left the harbor at Karsanye, this wolf escaped from its hiding place. In the chaos that ensued, my poor Kelina fell out of the boat and was drowned. Bandu was eventually able to calm Four-foot, but not before the fisherman gave him a long cut with his knife – a cut that would eventually become infected and mean the animal’s doom.

  On and on Phaedra wrote, her lettering growing smaller and smaller as she grew more practiced with the flint. When she next looked up from her work, the sun had nearly set. She let out a sigh of contentment and got up to stretch her uneven legs. I’ve barely even begun, she thought happily.

  She slept well that night, better than she had slept in ages. In her dreams she was dancing with the carefree joy that she had lost the day her nursemaid Kelina had drowned. Her feet glided along effortlessly and the music went on and on, though the musicians were nowhere to be seen among the crowd that surrounded her, watching her glorious performance. They had never seen anything like it before, she knew. They would go home and tell all the world what they had seen.

  In the morning, Phaedra did her best to roll up her makeshift scroll, and joined her friends as they prepared to leave. She had woken late, and seemed to have missed the morning’s argument.

  “Where are we going?” she asked Narky.

  “Ardis,” Narky told her, looking somewhat ill.

  “The Dragon Knight’s Tomb, really,” Hunter explained. “It came to Criton in a dream. It’s awfully close to Ardis, either way. I think we should ignore it, but I’ve been overruled.”

  “We can’t go around ignoring the Gods,” Narky said. “Certainly not now, and certainly not this one.”